As you get older,
you find that life begins to wear you down. People, experience,
time, and events all conspire against you to steal away your energy,
to erode your confidence, to make you question things you would not
have given a second thought to when you were young.
It happens
gradually, a chipping away that you don't notice at first, then one
day it's there. You wake up, and you just don't have that fire
anymore.
Then you have a choice. You can either give in to what you are feeling, just say okay, enough is enough, and be done with it, or you can fight it.
You can accept that every day you are alive that you are going
to have to face it down, that you are going to have to say to yourself
that you do not care what you feel, that you do not care what other
people think, that it does not matter what happens to you because sooner
or later it is going to happen anyway, that you are going to do what
you have to because otherwise you are defeated and life does not have
any real purpose left.
When you can accept the wearing down and the eroding, then you can do anything.
You just have to get past the fear.
